Carpe diem

I don’t even know

My mom always goes on these rant’s about how shitty everything is.  She usually ends up crying, I feel bad. But I also in the back of my mind, I just don’t. Things are not that bad. Yeah occasionally something shitty happens, but its always “conveniently” shitty; there is usually a probable solution. I wish my mom could see that… I know I get a lot of my pessimistic behaviors from my family. But now-a-days, more often than not. I see the optimistic side of things.

I mean I’ve got a good life, despite everything “bad”. I am okay with it, without everything that is happened up until this point.. I would not be here, and no matter what happens. I feel there will always be a good outcome it just may take some time, and most importantly effort. No one gets anywhere without effort, so l always push myself forward. The past really doesn’t matter, its done; it happened. Not much you can do other than learn and move on.

So I’ll look for the bright side of things, there is always something because nothing is ever as bad as it seems. There will be bad days, and there will be great ones.  But I am happy, I’ve got great friends, a (quirky, and some-what broken, but good) family, they may not understand me, and nor I understand them; I love them all the same. I’ve got a job with some weird, but cool co-workers. I’ve got everything I need, and some things I don’t, but eh. haha  and there may not always be enough money, but I don’t care. Life is definitely not about that. As long as I enjoy what I do in life, then everything else is just another challenge to be taken on.

  I may not know where I am going, and I don’t know what will happen. But life is one big adventure to be had, that is the fun of it.  So far I a happy where I am going,   and that’s a fact.